Dec 18, 2012

Power, Love and A Sound Mind

Every concept that I have thought of for a blog post the past couple of days seems silly and insignificant. I almost feel that to post something without acknowledging the horror and sadness I felt last Friday would be a lie. So here I am, posting something. I have no idea of what I am about to write, I am literally just typing, hoping it make sense. 



I am scared. I am scared for myself, our country, for our children. I have found myself getting freaked out by the silliest things lately. There was an unidentified van parked on campus today and I found myself imagining that it was a giant bomb and what I would do if it went off today.

So then I try to ignore the fear. Ignore that anything happened. I purposefully did not read any new information yesterday because that seemed like the best thing.

But, it's not the best thing. Living in fear and living in denial are both wrong. Neither will make me better, neither will make the world better.

For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. 
                                                 -2 Timothy 1:7 -

I choose to not be afraid, but to live in the power, the love and the sound mind I have in Jesus Christ. Power to act, to speak up for those who do not have a voice. Love to give to my family, to my friends, to perfect strangers. A Sound Mind to make decisions, to help those who need it, to share my faith.

It's true that I cannot imagine what it must feel like to lose a child, to see a family member commit horrible crimes, or to be trapped in a school while a man murders your friends. I am literally overwhelmed with emotion trying to imagine experiencing those things. I am very insignificantly affected. And yet, I am affected. I am changed.

7 comments:

  1. When I blogged on Friday, that's the exact same verse I went to. Even though we were not directly affected at all by any of it, it really has changed me too.

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    1. When I was a kid, my mom used to play this tape of corny Christian kid songs. There was a song that centered around this verse, so it has always stuck with me. I guess my mom knew what she was doing :)

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  2. I still can't get this tragedy off my mind either. I've also been uninspired to blog and enjoy the holiday season. Brave of you to post your feelings.

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    1. Thanks, J9. I am having a hard time "getting back to normal" too, but I know that it is important, so I'm working on it :)

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  3. THIS WAS A BEAUTIFUL, POWERFUL POST. I too couldn't stay silent and had to write about this (twice) on my blog. I, too fear for our children, especially since very soon I am about to have one. Is one safe to go anywhere anymore? Movie theatres, schools, temples, churches, apartments? Crimes and murders happen daily and we can't ignore them. Safety and Security are thrown away and I am left speechless, mad and angry. I wish I had the power to do something to stop it.

    Have a Great Weekend, Ashley. =)

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